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Sunday, June 2, 2013

Rockin’ Choccolocco 50k - Rollercoaster of love/hate/happy/sad who knows what


     Where to begin? Well……. Let me Start by saying the RD was great the people helping were great and the course was great. There were so many stream crossings and lots of sections by the rivers and lakes but I did not get to enjoy much of it. This was a mental run for me I hit some low point and some high points like never before and that was kinda the plan. If it’s in [ here ] it was a thought I did not say it. People that know me know I am extremely laid back when it comes to running and never seem to be to down. I do hit low points in 50ks around mile 18 and 28 but very short and easy to come out of. I needed more points and more extreme ones. Getting ready for Cremator 50 I know I will have some bad spots so I needed to get ready for it and make sure I don’t DNF. There will be some dark stuff in my thoughts so if you’re prone to nightmares go ahead and stop reading.

     Cremator 50 mile is about 6 weeks out and I registered for it about 4 weeks ago and that’s when I started really running again.
week
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday
Sunday
total
29-Apr
--
0
0
0
0
6
0
6
6-May
0
2
5.77
5.3
6.2
0
14
33.27
13-May
0
2
4.5
8
0
3
2
19.5
20-May
0
0
5
4
0
10
10
29
27-May
0
0
3
2
1
31
0
37


     Trying to get my miles up in somewhat of a smart way but still get them up after talking about 4 months off.  Like I said I don’t really hit low spots to bad (other than the FHT) the fact that this was a 50k and my max miles in a long time was 14 and I have not ran a hill since Harbison Jan 8th. I knew that if I was going to “get my mind right” this was my chance.  My plan was (this being an out and back) to try and have the run back as crappy as I could. We started the race at 7:30am just as it started worming up. [This will be a hot one. Good I need that too].  This was a 50k and ½ marathon so that was great for me. The plan was to go all out to the turn around and with there being a ½ that would really help. We ran a 1 mile section of road before we went into the trail head and as soon as my feet hit dirt I felt a wave of happiness all over my body. I started to settle into a nice pace [wait Joe what are you doing? This is not a chill run!!! Move mother-fer] So I hit it hard moving up to 7th place (then getting lost and moving back to 7th place) I did not know where I really was and would not until the ½ marathon turn around I just knew there were 7 runners in front of me. I was feeling great and just pushing it. The girl in front of me joked about turning around at the ½ marathon turn around so she could place I asked “why would you do that you can place in the 50k” She had no real response. At the ½ Marathon turn around I knew I was in 4th for the 50k and I knew I was in no shape to be moving this fast this early. [Well Joe you’re going to blow up a little sooner than you planed] I was hoping to make it to mile 18 or 20 before I “fell apart” “went sideways” or got “FD up like a Soup sandwich” but this would happen a lot sooner. Mile 14 about a mile from the 50k turn around it started “going south” Legs felt great but mentally I was shot. [F* these hills, F* all these river crossings and F* Rachel] (Rachel is my friend that talked me into this race). When I hit the turnaround I sat there for 5 min or so and really thought about dropping. [Yep Joe you got to this place now you got to push through] “Place” as in place in my head not “place” as in where I was in relation to the earth and space.

     I got my butt up and started the LONG trip back. My plan Gue every 30 min drink lots of water until mile 20 and finish in 6 hours and 30 min. I knew at this point all I had to do was run at least a 15:20 pace on the way back and I would finish in 6:30. Sounds easy right? Yea not so much. This is where stuff started getting wild. Crazy high points [butterflies, unicorns and rainbows] Crazy low points [kill myself, punch that lady and that one chick has the dumbest shirt I have ever seen in my life maybe we should talk about her complete lack of style] as I started back 3 guys in a line passed me and all I could think [O these mother-fers thank their bad well if I smashed their face in with a rock bet that would show them] about a mile latter [the sky is so pretty today can’t wait to sit in the lake for a min] about a mile after that a woman I was passing (I was at mile 18ish she was at mile 12ish) said “nice to see someone else walking”. I got so mad I thought [I’m gonna drop this chick] even took my handheld off. Really Joe? WTF is wrong with you? What I really said was “you’re looking great keep up the good work” this type of crazy ups and downs would keep going EVERY MILE until I finished. At one point I started feeling great and a song came on my Ipod that had me moving. I looked at my Garmin and I was back down to an 8 min pace. That lasted for about a mile then started cramping from my insides bouncing all over the place. I stopped bent over until the pain stopped telling myself “Well Joe you’re a dumb ass” “you happy now” "you feel like a big boy"? I sat down and looked at the ground. I just got these new running shorts and they are kind of short I found myself staring right at my balls. The mesh on the inside looked like some kind of ball bikini and I just started giggling for what felt like forever.  [Well Joe you can’t sit with your legs open in these]. A mile after that I really wanted to just jump off the side of the mountain. I remembered a friend saying he has had those thoughts before [Joe you make it through this and maybe one day you can be as bad ass as him]. I got to moving good again and stopped and just looked at a tree. I don't know why I just did. I thought [I should peal a little bark off and slide it slowly into my eye I bet that would make the rest of me feel better and I would have a real reason to stop] 
This shows some of the low points. Most of the time it looks like the first 10 miles the whole time

     The last 5 miles I started running with Kurt and come to find out he is training for the same 50 miler. Like an angle coming from the heaves to save me from my demonic self or Capt kirk (Think of this in William Shatner’s voice) Joe. You Must. Go-on. There. IS no. stopping now. that was just what I needed. Someone to talk to about the very reason I was putting myself though all this mental pain. The last 5 miles went a lot better and I finished in 6:33:? Garmin time.





     Looking back at past runs I feel like I did everything right and feel that I planed this run well. I really did not expect the amount of high and low points that I had but am thankful for them. I really feel that my head will be in a good spot for this 50. Now I just have to get my legs there. This morning (the morning after the run) My legs feel good but my insides are a little sore. I think its just from all the bouncing around from the hills. 


2 comments:

  1. Mental training is just as important as the actual run. I've had several ultras like this, where I go through some rough lows. You made a deposit that you'll be able with withdraw at the Cremator!

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    1. Thanks bro. Ultras 90% mental and 10% running right? I took a lot away from this run.

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